That's what I keep telling myself anyway...seriously though, I am very thankful. At this moment, I am thankful to be clean and sober on a holiday. Sobriety...a cosmic achievement for this seeker of solutions. I can't remember the last time I was here during a family gathering of any sort. It's been a while for sure. Funny to think back to all of the times I have wanted to stop my intake completely. The hangup was always Turkey-Day, Christmas and New Years...and, well, Valentine's Day, St. Patrick's Day, Presidents' Day, tax return day....then summer arrived and there was no way I could bust my ass all day in the beating sun and not quench it with an ice cold, beautiful, beer or twelve.
Maybe that is what I have to be truly thankful for on this Day. I am breaking a cycle. I am walking through a holiday season in a conscious and present state. I had resigned myself to my addictive ways long ago, and to be where I am today is nothing short of awesome. Somewhere along the line, this ride took a serious turn for the better, and for that I am extremely thankful.
Recovery First. Most other things are just imaginary anyway...
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